It’s a house, not a home

I am looking into stoicism. My temporary interpretation is the ability to look objectively at the world and your place within it. We live in a vast cosmos, filled with millions of galaxies twinkling thousands of light years away. We are certainly not the center of it and I’m glad not to be the orchestrator of it. I want to be able to think clearly, act kindly and be compassionate. I cannot accomplish this life goal while still being wrapped up in my own unconscious desires. My emotions at times take me out of my body and I become despondent. I agree during conversations because I feel like I have no other recourse, power and have objectively checked-out. Stoicism is the exact opposite in my estimation. Stoicism recognizes the world and its system as they are and adapts to them - if not by their sheer presence changes them. I want, for right now to adapt. Adapt and create a full life that is able to contribute positively and respond lovingly to others.