Creating a full life

The critical look at myself taught me that my internal life and dialogue slowly disappeared over time. In our twenties, I decided there was no time to play, explore or be adventurous because I wanted to focus on my career. I thought I wouldn’t have time to do any of my hobbies. Turns out, I barely had time for my husband as well. So over that time drifted apart but managed to find our way back to each other. As we now face our upper 30s together, we wonder about the legacy we will leave behind (with or without children).

Together we have decided to change and create the life we have only dreamed about. I dusted off a few old hobbies I used to enjoy before video games became a major constant in my life as an escape. I found my old library card and found out the online selection of books has dramatically increased! I’m currently reading Thrawn, a book set in the Star Wars Universe. I also found a small doodle/sketch pad to just let my mind wander and take a break from the modern everyday life. There is one difficult task I have incorporated. I need to increase my memory because sometimes I feel like I’m losing it. So now I started to play online sudoku and crossword puzzle games. I also have a few memory games I play.

I thought I wouldn’t have time to do all of these things. Each activity I do for a maximum of 15 minutes so I can get some regular household items done on the side. This blog though takes quite a bit longer, but I’m okay with that. Now, coming home does not feel like a chore but another place I get to explore what I truly want to do. I get to blog, doodle, read, and so many other activities now. Teaching is no longer a means to an end, but just the start of a very exciting day. I am so blessed I get to do three things that I love: writing, yoga and teaching.

A Critical Critique of Adora Marie

My journey starts today. A vastly different one than say starting college or a new career. I am retraining my body and mind to be more self-aware and emotionally intelligent.

I want the AM Yoga Blog to be my selfish journey towards a better life. I want my better life to include good health (weight management, clean diet, managing labs), a focus on wellness (meditation, self-care) with meaningful and deep relationships.

I want the AM Yoga Site to be a completely online modular yoga practice site with time management techniques and live classes to improve your practice. And that, is truly only the beginning. For this is my life’s purpose: to teach and educate so that other’s may have the courage to complete their life’s mission/goals/calling.

Together, these create the AM Yoga Network. This is certainly a lofty goal and I’m certainly not the person to run it - yet. Through this blog I want to unlock my own potential to live my best life. I know this blog will allow me to focus, stay on track and remember during the most difficult parts why I started doing this in the first place. To be that teacher, I need to retrain and rethink my entire daily routine.

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• I currently live a sedentary lifestyle, which I hate but secretly gives me immense pleasure.

• I have a terrible relationship with food.

• I always feel so stressed out, panicked, anxious and fearful - even when I shouldn’t be.

• I don’t take very good care of myself if I am being completely honest.

• My weight is really out of control. I have gained nearly 20 lbs. each year I have been working.

• I don’t have a very good work-life balance. I allow my teacher lifestyle to consume my life and at all costs.

• I allow those who don’t care about me control what I do from day to day and allow distractions to keep me from accomplishing my goals.

• I’m not certified to be a fitness trainer or a yoga instructor and certainly need the education to help me get there.

• I don’t practice or have any current hobbies I do for fun anything on a daily basis, except my lesson crafting.

• I do love all varieties of fitness!

• I do like learning.

• I do want to help and teach others.

• I’m not that patient with myself or other adults.

• I want more meaningful relationships - but I have no clue how.

• I do want all of life’s simple and extraordinary moments to be accessible to everyone.

Through this very personal blog of mine - I want to change (or encourage) all of these things and so much more. It’s hard to know where you’re suppose to start, until you write down everything about yourself. I hope you join me on my journey and find it helps you too.